I’m even jealous of me
To start my birthday off right, I’ve received three presents already!!!!
I had a sleek black 13 inch macbook to assist me through my educational endeavors from my birth father, Mark and family. I consider this my Christmas/Birthday/School gift for the next few years. I was mildly afraid of it for the first few hours…after all, I have had three cars and none of them were that expensive. I didn’t know what to do, so I just stared at it for a while. I am so used to ghetto computers that all the tricky things this thing can do escape me. I have to convince my little brother to hook me up with some basic lessons one of these days.
—–And to top it all off, I even got a card in the mail a day ago for my birthday from him, too.
My birth mother’s parents sent me a little money order. Though she did not exactly reference my birthday in the card, it does reference my schooling.
gave me a sleek itunes gift card, which comes in handy now that I have a mac and can hook up my video ipod Francine gave me last year for Kissmas (Francine gives the bestest gifts, another reason you should be jealous). Thank you so much Mr. Thteven, for your lovely generosity. 🙂
My own parents may or may not send me a card. I don’t expect one from my brother and my nieces, only because I am a shitty aunt. In fact, I am shitty with all cards. It is only fitting that I not get a birthday card. I remember their birthdays. I call them on them. But I don’t bother sending cards because I am forgetful. I don’t mean to be, I just have a hard time with stamps and not procrastinating on occasion. My sister’s birthday is 4 days after mine, and I will send her a card, but this is a strange, even infrequent occasion. I need some kind of reminder program so people can stop expecting nothing from me. Ah well, you get what you give, I guess. So basically nobody should give me anything–I think I am a bad friend, too, most of the time.
Bah. So much for that self-deprecation. I realized today that my seizure medicine is supposed to be regulating moods and/or pain as well as preventing seizures. You actually do feel completely insane when your medication is off (for the seizures anyways). I can’t quite explain it, but I have looked over the edge to my own “nothingness”, that point where you just feel like your sanity dangles by a string, and you could lose every semblance of dignity or reality with just an unseen shift in the head.
E is having issues, questioning things. He thinks he might end up going into entertainment law. The record industry is going down in flames. And he doesn’t want to burn with it.
Anyhow…I should be looking for classes or writing my paper which is due next Wednesday. That’s what Friday nights are for, I guess.
Be good little cookies.
xo
You’re welcome. 🙂 I hope you get some nice music to rock out to!
but of course!
That’s the whole point, obviously!
you rule!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Your a better aunt then I am an uncle, I can barely remember anyone’s birthday. The only reason I’ve gotten a little better is because my nieces all have myspace pages and since they’re on my friends list I get birthday reminders, myspace is good for something at least.
yeah, no good. I really get angry with myself for being so sloppy. But that’s life I guess.
My neices are too young for myspace. I will be disturbed to see the day. All that aside, I would not want anyone in my family to know I have one anyways.
thanks for the b-day wishes!
I’m trying to get my together, buying a pda to keep things organized has helped.
I keep my myspace page clean for that very reason, the dirt is on bme 😉
You know only cool people have birthdays in October 🙂
happy birfday, miss deaa! sounds like some sweet gifts are coming your way.
re: seizure meds and the emotional crossover – this book The Midnight Disease has some info on it and how it relates to writing too, all the same bits of the brain, perhaps. most interesting b/c it was written by a neurologist who spent her days telling people to take their crazy pills and they’re like ‘but then i won’t be able to write!’ and then she developed hypergraphia during post-partum depression, and was like ‘aha, this is why they don’t want to take them, because neither do i!!’
i never finished it b/c the biology confused me, but i will finish it someday, after i finish the stack of books on my nightstand, which is bigger than something really fucking big.
anyway. a discussion to have over drinks perhaps. a roundtable of writers raising hell. hope this all made sense; i am running late for work. again.
— meep
hi miss meep!
I am happy to see you here!
yayYAY! I haven’t had a new friend post in FOREVER. I don’t even know if anyone reads my stuff anymore.
But anyways, I know what she means—I suppose these mood stabilizers make things less dramatic and prone to write about. I have never purposely taken anything like this before, so I have to wonder if my zen-state is medically induced (I think it is).
I will check that book out for sure, though. Be good Miss!
And be my friend!
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added ya back!
Happy birthday!!! I have been MIA again because of work (on call Monday and Friday of this week) and my social calendar suddenly having lots of activity. Congrats on becoming part of the Mac community. I too am a proud Mac owner. My 2003 12″ G4 Powerbook is a tank. I still use it as my main machine to this day. I also got a video iPod last year and now I will actually use the video feature to watch my Kaplan USMLE step 2 videos on it when I start to study for it. I am so proud of you, how you got your life together and found happiness. I wish you nothing but the best.
hahah!
Thanks!
My life was quite a mess and going in that nowhere zone for entirely too long.
I really have done it, it’s true.
Thanks for the recognition and well wishes.
x
Francine!
I want a full Bday BBQ LJ update with photos and stuff!!
I hope you had the awesomest birthday ever this year.
I love you infinity squared.
The Other Francis
<3