getting on the field, I guess
Well, looks like my senses are never too too far off the mark. I have been many people in many situations and have traveled through many careers and job titles. I have spent my time in various arrangements of priorities, depending on the circles around me or my support, or lack of support system at that time. If you looked at my resume, sure, there’s a continuing theme of helping people, sure, but all in all I have evolved from so many industries–I am just a mash of lots of different ideas and experiences. Every once in a while–every once in a while it’s time to fuck it all up, as sometimes you need that zap to get shit moving again.
Sometimes you have to have your eyes wide open enough to see the writing on the wall and try to prepare for the inevitable. My job, Help Desk for travel agents, is not a bad one but something feels off the mark right now with how I specifically fit in the web. I am not going to get caught with my pants down and be automated out of service. I got scared yesterday and decided shit, it’s time to really make the web shit happen and bought a package of design classes I needed to really need to materialize with all of these websites I happen to own and have no money to pay anyone to design. I don’t own Adobe yet, but boy do I have the cheap classes, haha. It took me about 30 minutes starting work yesterday to understand that change already happened while I was asleep and I was planning my next move. This is how I evolved as an adult in the city, and when I say The City, I always mean NYC, which is why I think those experiences framed so much of who I am and why I will literally pick up and move with very little worry. I am going to remark this now–but Facebook has been trying to recruit Don again (they have been after him since last June) and there’s Seattle talk now. Not sure how to feel about that, but here’s my note to that. From nothing to everyone, people are finally seeing his value and that is pretty outstanding.
So I definitely need a tablet and something to run this massive program on so I can learn the ropes and have a backup plan I am sure to probably need here down the road. First comes the writing–that IS getting done in small increments, I just have to, those classes so once that is mastered the design comes next–I am not keen to think I would be building other people’s websites because–fuck it. I am kind of sick of focusing on making other people money with little reward and you would want to master a craft before unleashing your talents on the public around you. I mean, this is how I try to treat my own. I have to develop my own success before sharing its process around.
A friend asked me last night if I was ready to “get on the field” and we had this talk about taxes and government and stocks. He wants to fund my first TDAmeritrade account because he thinks I have the talent to be a good trader at least even just for myself, and I guess his group of friends. Which is actually a pretty stellar compliment because though I love Math, I am not Math smart, exactly. Yes, I do percentages and some statistics, but not really. I do, however, read a lot a lot a lot before forming opinions and consult real sources before developing any idea on any of it, so maybe that is it. This is the same person who told me I should raise kids because I am a good person and there is not enough of that in the world, so maybe he is smitten. The real point is I have no idea how he formulated the you would be a good trader idea, but it might just be the easy, low commitment way to see how to gamble and make money legally. And he might be pushing that whole you fake it til you make it method of success that can work sometimes.
Wish me luck, I fucking need it.
