deep thoughts by bla bla smiley (mm hmm D)
i am changing. myself. for the better.
seeing it right now makes it necessary.i sometimes think i feel i am better than most
reduction in deify equals all the right in deny
egotist tick must stop
and end before it gets too carried away with the brilliance.
when i was a kid i hated myself. alot. i don’t think i ever thought i deserved anything. period. because of the violence in the physical and emotional parts of time. bruised head more than bruised “head”. i didn’t feel it. until recently. i think i do love myself now. and i hate that little girl that thought she deserved nothing. and far into my realization, i won’t forget the mistakes that were made. meaning i will not berate nor beat a child. ever. child of mine or born by someone else.
the end.
by the way, a former friend or whatever knocked into my page and may have done some fucked up or unexplainable things
maybe it’s you who thinks he’s smarter than everyone else. i love how thin the line gets while deciding who to love and to hate.
