an uneven exchange, perhaps
I was in the shower this morning musing on things. I mused on what I want to accomplish over the next span of time. I recognized that though I am certainly more frequent than I have been in some time as of late…and yeah, that does feel good. But what the hell are any of you getting out of this? I mean–I did have to ask myself especially with the realization that every transaction err, interaction on the internet usually has some relationship to a some kind of exchange. An exchange of ideas, a give and take or relationship of sorts. A reason to return, I suppose is what I mean.
I give you all kinds of opinions and thoughts. Maybe sometimes you can empathize a bit, but as a general statement I don’t think most people are walking away with any kind of satisfaction after their visit. No bookmark for a later time. That’s the kind of exchange I am missing, I mean, crap. I share the shit out of reference materials and articles in even my facebook but this is all wind and no sail as they might suggest.
Articles and products and things I am excited about? Never here for whatever reason. Not even what I have discovered on my own condition. Hmmm. There’s a kind of bizarre laziness I have taken to my personal writing as of late…just even trying to get in the practice of getting down what I remark in my head on paper with any kind of frequency is something I should do more of–but I wander and the lines aren’t as congruent as they should be a lot of the time.
Today was a day of chaos–because the homeless people stole my id and I haven’t been able to get the the dmv (and won’t until Friday, my next day off)–and so I kept that passport in the hopes I could go out and prove it was my birthday–but you know I needed to renew it so that is what I did. Oh my god I cannot believe I did not follow through with my instincts to call and see if they could do passport photos. So I walked over to the Colfax Walgreens. They had totally lost their camera so yikes. I called the other Walgreens down on Broadway, which oh my god is there an app which can track a walk? Wow is what what would have been. I walked over there, cut across Cheesman park to my house, stopped there, and then walked over to the Broadway Walgreens. I got my photo done then walked back to my house. Then I walked to the post office which is past Colfax and got to drop it all off there which was a nice surprise given I was totally not into it and had forgotten my pedi bracelet dammit–I was prepared to walk to the UPS store up on 20th which would have been another kind of hauling of ass I was not keen to do. So I thanked the mail lady profusely and walked into the post office to mail my passport and the renewal application so I could finally be done with it. I hate my picture–I mean who doesn’t? But I suppose I could get better looking somehow. Sober is the outlook for the rest of October, so there is that to consider.
I walked home and considered going back out to the DMV because I do need my license. But the only reason I would need that is if I were drinking…
So. Friday, it is!
Experiments commencing shortly.
