the responsibility and role models
I have to say–after having so many years of absolute chaos, and I am talking even of New York in many ways, because though it was certainly fun, it never seemed exactly stable at all. New York was the land of promise, yet nothing was promised to anyone, really. It was the place you went to find out who you were in many ways–at least I found it that way. And I thrive in city environments, and we are not in the city enough–even the last neighborhood was as convenient as this, the liquor store within walking distance, restaurants, beauty salon, convenience store, you know, all the great things a nicely arranged strip mall can provide. I want to get the hell out of here so I can be in that city-thriving environment and we can afford it, but I read too much, I poison my future too much maybe, I am not entirely convinced it is a smart time to move but I know moving is the thing that will be the most direct route to me thriving. Maybe it is the thing to do when the best deal comes forward, but right now we need to get a new car as the axle is it is creaking and really always now feels like it is on the verge of snapping, and I realize after having driven my friend’s brand new car recently for a week–the quality of car environment definitely affects the driving experience.
So Don continues to keep getting contacted by recruiters, the most recent being Facebook directly–it’s like the technology he knew was too new at the time to continue on with the job he wanted until recently. He was running wire on roofs before and now he is working for a big big company and making the money from his brains over brawn again. We could probably now choose a state to move to and be good in a pretty short period of time, but right now I want that to be a year or so down the line. A lot of where we go ultimately I realize is up to my own talents. I have a project I am trying to get launched by 10/1. No joke this time–I am trying to remedy my follow-through, since it seems like life might not be us treading water soon.
A few things the blog or vlog will highlight–the keto diet, which is actually something I have been reading up on and I am going to try and sustain the two of us on since we now have something to live for and life is starting to open the doors I have had to scream at for years now. Beauty and skincare, and maybe some facts on living your best life, exercises etc…I do have instagram and I will be doing that–but right now I am going through a bit of a cleanse. See, we drink too much. I want to say we drank too much, but it’s only been two days and the issue usually comes from Don getting stressed driving home, and a bottle of wine is hard to say no to then. It doesn’t help me. It doesn’t make me productive, it doesn’t advance anything but just for me, passing out early. For him, binging on sugar like a teenager. Hence the keto diet. I mean, we have flirted with the vegan thing for a while, but there is something missing from that diet, and avoiding all animal protein is not something well suited for modern life all the time, nor does it seem to help me.
Anyways–most of you have children you can leave as some kind of legacy. I hope I can leave one that lasts a few years after I am dead, I hope, and maybe give out some good information on diet, lifestyle, etc, for those of all ages, though I’ll maybe highlight I am in my 40’s now, and with that comes a realization–you are not necessarily young and cute for no reason. You have to put a little work into it, and that I think I am going to force the discipline to do–and bring a fuck of a lot of people along for the ride, one hopes.
