today is sad and stunted
stunted for reasons I cannot quite explain
I woke up feeling lost somehow, like I wasn’t supposed to be there, in my bed. so late so late. I woke up
at 11. But I passed out fully clothed, with my little silk camisole and tweedy blazer thing, full belt, jeans
I didn’t fall asleep in my boots but that is bound to happen
today is the beginning of a new change. I hope.
I think it might be the culmination of my apartment being a disaster after it was pristine for so long
and all of the things I want seemingly too far away to touch
though I suppose that little idea named patience will have to take my spot
because I am not interested in being all patient all of the time
maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed
or maybe I am just a big fat bitch
a little of each is probably true
I need a mind purge to get all of this garbage out.
I need an activity conducive to this
I need to paint my fucking apartment a different color so that I don’t have to feel like
I am in a dungeon-like crypt
I need to get some UV lamps or a fake sun
I tend to get this flippy and bitchy with no sun exposure
and given that I have literally entombed myself in a small dark can
what can I expect?
Steal some sunshine for you…
Let’s go fake bake together…we’ll get some “sun” and some UV and prolly a disease form the tanning bed as well…
Re: Steal some sunshine for you…
dude. seriously I would think about it. except for the “tan” part it sounds like a good idea.
I am wigged out and whacko. I don’t want to talk to anyone at all, which is odd. but I will aim on later later.
glad to see your session went well. london got on the phone with the bowery to try to sneak me in, but no dice. no prize. blehlblehblahelbahe
HEY!!!
I don’t see no stinkin bitches here *said in best Mexican banditto accent possible*
Seriously, unless you’re talking about the doggy kind – loyal, loving, honest, playful, with the occasional moodiness – I can’t see that title applying to you.