I get pretty fucking dark a lot, as you see, but keep in mind I spend an inordinate amount of time alone, kicking around the dark corners of my own brain. Don works all night and I am still somewhat of an insomniac, though possibly not as productive as I’ve been when I was younger…
It appears the leg I had, the right leg I had is now 1/3 as fantastic as it was, having two vessels cut off to the lower leg which will mean I am left semi-functional and yes, fucking gimpy to some extent if the leg doesn’t fail entirely at all.I have to say I have…
Well that wasn’t a very fun time at all. I got a clot and proceeded to spend Wednesday through Sunday in the hospital, 98% entirely alone and cried because I was alone and had virtually nobody invested in any healthy outcome for me compared to, well yes absolutely some times past. I didn’t go telling…
Oh and I have those for sure. It appears I somehow manifested a clot down there, it shot down not up, guys–and it is cutting the blood off to the leg and since I also do not want to lose the leg, as was suggested, time to get that sucker blasted. Tomorrow it is.Lame, you…
I think I have used that title more than a few times in my life, always surprised as anyone I make it through certain things. Right now I am focused on my focus and brain to make it all better since certain factors physically I am inept to control. The leg hurts, sure, but since…
I feel like I need to remark this, just in case you all need it to illuminate the story of my death, whenever that might happen. I am hopefully joking right now because last night I was done. Done done done. I actually uttered “kill me now,” which I hear Don exclaim often enough but…
Sooooo….Yeah yeah I am still getting some shit done. Don has to upgrade my computer to be able to host anything to the point of at least being able to edit any videos. Who knew? The best part is now I do have a deadline enforced by another, 6 weeks from yesterday to get the…
I have been musing quite a bit on relationships and basically our relationship to the world around us. I think there is something to be said with communing and connecting with nature, sure, and some people have more of that access to fully integrate into their existence. There is an absolute natural power to the…
.Man I have been kind of raring to write this shit about my experiences as some kind of exercise of camaraderie with women or whatever, but all it does is leave me fucking angry. Like why the fuck do I need to write my shitty experience down at all? Will it make me feel better…
Wow, you guys. What an amazing evolution on communication to witness. No, really. I have been commenting for quite some time on the anger and vitriol and hyperbole informing people’s opinions and beliefs. As a general statement I let people express what they want to express and then I step in with what I feel…
