the equation is the lesson of learning

Huh, and wow. I have been in some kind of weird quasi weird land, navigating this idea of having a family being so in my face and unavoidable that I really am still a bit uneasy in certain situations, namely speaking up for myself. I realize I am a grown woman and this should not…

pain and I have known each other every day since 1995

One of the first few surgeries I did have (I think this was the second one) involved them cutting from the top of my right shoulder blade, around the scapula, under my left breast and splitting down in between my bottom two ribs clear through to my groin area. It has left me with masses…

heaven is a bike ride

So yesterday after we left the coffee shop, we ventured to two more…then as I was getting home I got a phone call from the neighbor who shares the back alleyway and sits directly behind my sister’s house. He (Justin) is my first ‘in person’ friend here, given I have been using the internet as…

resolution and the evolution of ideas

Denver so far is a welcome experiment in regards to my personal evolution with regard to my business and personal life. Last week was primarily an exercise in acclimation–socially, emotionally and physically. I also have realized that not being stressed to the ends of the earth is terrible in terms of my poetic mind…I realize…

time for a little pause and reflect

So that is done, finally. My body is wrecked more than it has been in quite some time, which is saying a lot given I am pretty sure I am more hardcore than most anyone else I have had the benefit of knowing. Next time, I will burn it all, I don’t care. Stuff is…

how do you say goodbye to twelve years of your life?

These past few days and next week will be some of the most challenging days of my free-choice life. Free-choice in that obviously surgery is one of those things you normally don’t subject yourself to unless you are looking for work on the outside, but since all of mine were inside fixes, I’d say this…

Spring is in 7 days!!!

So I realize that I can’t go off on political rants every time I have the opportunity to, but I am also pretty sure that I would have nothing but fun if I were to make that a rule of my little editorials. I have a number of them in the works, and as Kristen…

the world is going to H E double Hockey Stick

Wow. Now I know a lot of people will snicker or shake themselves awake with this one, offering all kinds of explanations of why this is happening, the least of which of course has anything to do with Jesus or any of the Bible’s supposed warnings of the upcoming apocalypse. The book itself was written…

I cannot think here, but only about what I am going towards

Sheesh. If I had to describe my life in this in between zone I would say nothing good about it, at all. I spend days inside this studio, zipping out sporadically for things like food and maybe a little shower over at my friend’s house every other day or so. It’s put me into a…

I bite my dog, no seriously I do

So I have been watching my youngest girl pitbull, Sophie these days. I guess she is my only now, but that’s a secondary realization.Today is my last day with her alone (her Father is her main keeper now, after all), before I get chucked out into studio time, packing and wrangling my life back into…


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