the drafts and the difference

Here are a few of the recent unfinished ones–generally what happens is I start writing it in the am–during a break from work or whatever…and then I forget about finishing it–and then I tell myself no, it is OKAY, because you will remember later. Now I do have a real talent sometimes with words and…

scarcity and time

The past 24 hours have been a bit of a whirlwind–emotionally and spiritually I have been a little taxed and renewed and still feel a little lost to some things. I realize my concept of time is not like other people’s. Not in a general this is my time, here you are but an overarching…

wandering around in the dark, somehow I hit something

Oh internet–you all know I have sung my songs before on what you were born to do and what you’ve become. I suppose that’s a line in another song I will plan to sing…but today I ran into another hallway of people not in my general circumstance, or really what I mean is people who…

Awareness changes everything.

I stole this headline from this week’s lessons, courtesy of A Year To Clear–see I have been on this self-improvement kick as of late–trying all manner of class, scheme, whatever, to make a little cash as it feels like things are still just tightening around my neck with all the nothing I currently have with…

and now we can talk about shit that matters

I’ve been in this existential crisis over the past few years trying to re-invent myself–by recognizing the shit around me, apparently–which when I cut it off right there without an explanation–seems pretty fucking stupid. I mean…you want a positive slant, a lifting spin on your designation, why the fuck would you constantly be looking at…

Money as an American Value

I have been thinking about this a lot lately in my struggles to understand the world around me-I guess in my struggles to define the things I am seeing I have started making these connections with the things that seem to make the world go round. I guess we are all trying to find our…

super cala who the hell wants to spell that out anyways?

Today is day 1 back to work. It’s been a bit slow and to be honest–it’s really not the hardest job in the world. It is simple and easy and being nice to people is something I have always been good at. Well, at least when it comes to things like me providing service. One…

scarlet marked for debt

Today is the last day of the birthday vacation. Was pretty nice in general though there are a few things I still didn’t get done–surprise! Today I went to the hospital again and came home. Today they tried to once again goad me with going to a therapist which–if you recall any of the mentions…

an uneven exchange, perhaps

I was in the shower this morning musing on things. I mused on what I want to accomplish over the next span of time. I recognized that though I am certainly more frequent than I have been in some time as of late…and yeah, that does feel good. But what the hell are any of…

41 and didn’t feel a thing

Ha. Well I suppose that’s the most benign way I might be able to address a pretty uneventful yet full of events day that was my birthday. Don is not a particularly thoughtful person, let’s say. He isn’t one to really think about flowers or the easy stuff. His idea of giving is usually centered…


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