New Year Smears

So…got one down yesterday, and though I have a mounting headache up in the noggin, it’s that whole remark the life you might forget that compels me to try this again. So yes, two in a row in the first three days, is that right? Mmm Hmm. So today I interviewed for a more paying…

for 2019…I will try to hate myself a little less

Last year I bought this dream book kinda thing–well it was a planner with goals set up in a short term, long term and semi regular kinda thing, weeks laid out, goals listed and easily checked off quarterly and monthly. I got it at the end of the year for 2017 and I had every…

the responsibility and role models

I have to say–after having so many years of absolute chaos, and I am talking even of New York in many ways, because though it was certainly fun, it never seemed exactly stable at all. New York was the land of promise, yet nothing was promised to anyone, really. It was the place you went…

Aortic Dissection Awareness Day is Today, Guys

I can tell you all I felt like a bit of anomaly before I came across this group on facebook that has 2400 members. Granted I haven’t run into anyone with the exact same situations, but there are those who have had as much as me if not maybe more, who knows at the end…

the push, an end to oasis

I’ve always thought some of my better works were on the backs of cocktail napkins. When would one be privy to cocktail napkin poems? Clearly either drinking or bartending, and both usually involved the same thing. Tonight, a last hurrah in white wine dreams before Don runs off to be a professional again–wow on our…

Holy Crap the Threat of Heart Exhaust is Very Real Here

I see that up there and wonder about my tendency to keep things lower case when I used to title the works I would post here–not sure what any of it even means in the grand schemes of things, but there are some things I do know, being me as that is the only person…

Every Once in a While…Thank god, or the Universe for the Surprise

There’s been some monumental shifts lately in the way things are working. It’s like finally something snapped and things are really going to be alright. I would elaborate but still feel the tendency to cloak my good news in generalities just in case they don’t fully ripen though this fruit is a bit sweeter than…

poking and prodding and dumping

I’ve been quiet lately, writing my own novels in my head, realizing I need to get this shit out sooner than later before I forget another piece of my own life. That is the risk you run when you have as many oxygen free moments in the brain as I have had, for whatever amount…

Discipline and Practice

Well then…as I am sure we have all seen in the news lately–things are a little off lately but I am trying all I can to keep it together and take the steps I have needed to take to ensure that I have some hope for an actual future. I have been a bit shell-shocked…

Lemons in the Mix

So, I do write about this often enough through social media means—but people who have had these kinds of illnesses–dissections, heart surgeries, any number of events that could catastrophically devastate your body–we are lemons. Now–it doesn’t mean we are sour or unable to be good, but lemons in terms of monetary value. We cost the…


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